I feel like it's pretty amazing how much I've cried, especially over the past four years.
I cry all the time and it's not because my life sucks or that anyone has made me really unhappy, it's a mixture of all of what goes on in life. Happiness, joy, sadness, loneliness, anger, frustration, moodiness, and whatever other reasons someone might think to cry about. And of course there is usually a mixture of a few of those emotions.
Well, I gotta tell you, I've about had it with these emotions of mine this weekend because they have been up and down and I hate it! It makes me feel even more wishy-washy than usual.
Today I feel lonely, which is ironic because I was surrounded by people all day. I guess the reason why I feel lonely is because even though they are all good friends, I don't have that best friend connection with any of them (Nothing against them at all, they're great). I don't have any friends at home that are my age, that are girls, that like the same things I do, that have free time and want to hang out with me. And although I want to be content with what I have, that is a struggle because I think that people do need time with friends like that. My friends like that all live 2 or more hours away and have their own busy lives at school.
Anyways, it's been hard this semester in that respect, but the bright side of it all is that Thomas is home forever. Such a blessing.
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