Oh, Fall.

So it's finally officially and wonderfully fall and what have we received with this? Rain. I am so glad because it hasn't rained in such a long long time. I love the rain so much. I like sunshine too, but rain feels calming to me, it makes me want to snuggle up and do fun things inside. 


There are so many things I want to do versus the things I have to get done and they will not mix only because I have to sleep at night.


Wants:
To bake.
To research recipes.
To knit.
To have more awesome Jesus time.
To plan wedding things. 
To hang out with the boys.
To read books for pleasure, not pain!


Well I'm sure I could list more but lets not get carried away!


Needs:
Jesus. (He is always first on the list)
To finish the lump of reading/homework for this week.
To find a job that pays me well and isn't a million miles a week. 
To clean my room. 




I'm not going to lie, the other day I told Thomas exactly this: "I'm so tired of school, I don't like figuring out job stuff, I just want to play!!"
to which he replied, "What?"   (or something like that.)
and so I said, "I want to do things I really enjoy!"
I also said in a different conversation: "I think this is the point in my life where I have to work really hard at stuff I don't want to do to get where I need to be."   --- And as much as I hate that sentence, it's probably true. Blahhh!! At least I'm not as stressed as I was! :) 








So I think I'm really ready for the winter this year and I don't know why! I usually hate the winter! I'll probably end up hating it anyways, what with all the dormant trees and brown grass. The only thing that's really fun about winter are the holidays. Christmas, being my favorite of course. Although I think New Years Day will be my favorite!!! 
Everyone is saying "What a great way to bring in the new year!" --- Heck, whenever I think about 1-1-11 I don't think about the first day of the year, I'm thinking about getting to marry the love of my life! Man I really can't wait to cook for him all the time. I'm really excited to be a wife, (and mother when that time comes.) I think that is totally my calling and passion in life. Thank you, God. 




Well, I still wish I were in my own kitchen baking and listening to fun music but alas I have a pile of stinky text books instead. Got to start reading something or it very well may cram up my weekend, which I don't want.