You'll Never Know The One Who Loves You So.

Oh how He Loves us. 


This week I have been very frustrated, it was rather subconscious most of the time, but it lasted all week long and into tonight. I am so frustrated that I am not where I want to be, that I'm not with Thomas, or with Sarah. I'm just plain mad, and I feel like a two year old saying "It isn't fair!" And although it may not be fair, it is still wrong to let myself have these feelings. They are rather selfish. I don't like saying that, I don't like saying I'm being selfish, the thing I want to do most is to justify my feelings, and in my heart I am trying to justify them still. This again shows, how human I am, and how far I am from being like Christ. It seems I need to refocus some of my priorities, and throw this out-of-wack-week, back into-wack. It's comforting to know that I haven't always felt this way, and I won't always feel this way. It's totally and completely possible for me to be content with the people that I do have, the interaction that I do have with others even if it is every few weeks, to be content with the Lord and what he has given me. Tonight as I called Thomas back up after skyping, sad with tears streaming down my cheeks, he told me that I should write a list of blessings to make me happy. Initially just the thought of that did not make me very happy, I would've rather stayed there being sad. But I thought about it and knew that's probably the best thing to do at a time like this. (Ohhhh, at a time like this, at a time like this, at a time like this! Oh I need the Lord to help me!) - There is a camp song for you. 






Blessings, in no particular order.
(but I do have a top three)


Jesus Christ's saving the human race by dying on the cross for our many sins. 
Thomas Pinckney, and the love we share, the love we receive from God. 
Camp Mundo Vista, and all of the amazing works God has done in my life and the lives of others while I've been there. 
The sweetest twin sister in the world.
A daddy who smiles even though he's in so much pain.
A mommy that is willing to work to support our family. 
It's a blessing to even have my parents together and happy, and not divorced. :) 
God really blesses my heart every day with how beautiful nature is, flowers, trees, grass, the sky, everything.
The joy I have for cooking and baking is a blessing because I'm actually good at it. 
My church, what a blessing it is to know that I'll have a great sunday with fellowship and counsel and friends.
The gift of photography. 
People who have beautiful singing voices. 
Dancing around like a fool, and not caring.
Late night conversations with Thomas. 








There are many more blessings obviously, I could go on endlessly until the day I die and even more after that would follow I'm sure. Maybe I'll add on later, but for now, there you go. Enjoy and think of your blessings as well!


This is because I know you'll read this blog; Thank you darling for telling me to write this list. You are one of the biggest blessings God has ever blessed me with, and I know that blessing will only grow and grow over time. Thank you for being there for me when I need you. ♥ ♥ ♥