Hello.

There have been a lot of thoughts going through my head tonight. About this week, about spring break, about my boyfriend, about school, about my grades. I really do want this week to be over with, not only to get over some of the stuff going on (i.e. tests, quizzes, papers, and the regular homework load.) - but tonight I just feel like a failure. I failed my Astronomy test today. Part of me is pretty bummed about it, another part of me feels like a complete failure, another part of me wants to say I don't even care because I don't even like that class, but the rest of me knows I need to work harder at it. If I do end up failing this class or getting a lame grade even though I worked hard, I will be sad, I will be disappointed, but I hope at the end I can say I did my best and that will be alright. The worst part about failing isn't always the failing part, but when people you love are disappointed in you. That for me is probably one of the worst feelings in the entire world.


You know, when you're young you have those days where you really can't see the end of it? It seems like you'll feel this way forever? I am having one of those nights, but I sit here almost laughing at myself because I know one day I might realize how silly that is and realize what a waste of time it was to feel this way. 


Going to bed now, I still feel like a failure, a little bit stupid, I don't want to think about other people's opinions right now, but what I am going to do is read my bible, pray to the Lord, have a good night of sleep, and His mercies will be new in the morning. Soon enough this dreaded week will be over and I will be able to be with the man I love with all of my heart and soul, Thomas Pinckney. ♥