Deep thoughts...

I'm listening to Billy Joel's "Just the Way You Are", it brings back lots of memories surprisingly enough. That's the song Tommy dedicated to me at prom last year (2008). I have to say, I cried when we were dancing on that dance floor together.There were also many times when I would dance in my room alone with my teddy bear like a little girl during the school year waiting until Tommy came home so I could dance with him. I admit that I still do that. The truth is, I am a little girl. I've grown up so much and I've become so mature and independent. Blah blah blah. I feel like it's all a fake because the thing is, I am still a very little girl. I have given myself this fragile heart with emotions like waves in the ocean and I realize, that I'm not very independent at all. While I sit here listening to this song, I think about how the lyrics of the song somehow shifted (or at least tonight they have) to mean something completely different to me.

Don't go changing, to try and please me
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And I don't see you anymore
I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are

Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care

I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you.

I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.

Now I know that this song isn't really about this, but I know that no matter how insignificant (much like right now) I feel I know that God loves me. I just pray that I would totally and completely be giving myself up to God spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically every minute.